The words: ‘Activate your memory’ have been on this website for a number of weeks. It is the first thing you see when you log in, in big capitals, in the middle of the screen. Believe me when I tell you that several opening sentences have been deleted on the way to that one perfect sentence, which says so much more to me than ‘Welcome to my Website’. It fits perfectly with the process, which I am in right now and everyone who is traveling with me to the Source Code (the activation that we will share on the 21st December 2020). The path leading there feels like a deep awakening. I feel this on all layers: physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The memory of the Source is one which switches everything ‘on’ in me. But how do you explain that feeling to someone else?
‘Follow the music’
‘Be brave’, Louis said to Lyla, when he invited her to climb up on the roof of the hotel to be able to look deeper into one another’s eyes. Somewhat shy, but intrigued, Lyla succumbed to the charm of her mysterious prince, who stared at her magically and with one look declared the love. The two of them had a passionate night and feel asleep in one another’s arms, when they were awoken by the sunrise and abruptly separated, without knowing how they would ever find one another again…
This is a scene from the dramatical film August Rush in 2007. It is the story about young Evan, the child that Lyla gives birth to nine months later after her romantic night with Louis and under pressure from her strict father is forced to give him up for adoption. The story is moving and compelling about the path that Evan has to take to find his parents because he is sure that they are waiting for him somewhere and he is going to find them, just as long as he ‘follows the music’. I have shared this film in a retreat, with the message that everything is possible if you (just like Evan) dare to listen to the voice in your heart. Of course, this is a fictional story, with a huge Hollywood appeal, but what I really feel, it’s true. For all of us there is something in this world which is calling us. We all carry the memory within that tells us who we really are and where we came from. The activation of the memory is not just an action, but the path that you can follow with complete trust. That begins with the little voice within that says to you: ‘Be brave!’ Take the invitation and follow me: the voice of your heart. Follow the music (the signs) and allow yourself to be led to something that you have always known (like Evan’s parents) is waiting for you.
Beyond the craziness
The way to the Source Code has started on the 2nd October (with Tijn Touber) with the activation: Authenticity. Why is this frequency so important? Because we can only leave when we know who we are and (more important) who we are not. How we see ourselves in the world, is almost always based on the reality which we have adopted. It is a projection of ourself and from our surroundings. Sometimes it is correct with the idea of who we are, but often not. One of the pitfalls that we have is that we often conform ourselves to the overruling opinions of what others think and say, because then you are accepted. It is more preferable to subject yourself to the critical questions with the risk of alienating from the rest and becoming an individual. This confrontation makes us unsure and we try to avoid it.
But if we are brave and move on to self-reflection and we discover that we are not behaving how we feel, then the question comes up: why not? Why do I not feel at home? Why do I feel so different? You know why really, because from somewhere deep within there is a sort of longing and nostalgia which you have always felt that you are waiting for something. In Evan’s case it was the realization that he did not feel at home in the orphanage where he grew up and where he was bullied by the other boys, who said he was crazy when he spoke about finding his parents. This ‘craziness’ is where it begins. It is daring to be vulnerable about what you feel, which is not regarded as something strong by many, but what at source is really powerful, because you need courage for it. It is the first step to authenticity, and probably the most difficult step of all. You leave something behind (a certain security) which you have become used to even if it does not feel good anymore.
In my case this happened 17 years ago, with my decision to say goodbye to the world of advertising. It brought me to a difficult point, because all the securities that I had built up were connected to my work. I had formed my entire identity to the job I had in advertising, where from a business point of view, everything was fine. And even so, I could no longer commit myself to the life I was leading between people who only cared about the outside. I missed something essential. I missed depth, in the office and elsewhere. And when I was able to realize this, then I reached the point that I had to stop. It was a difficult choice because I heard my surroundings say: ‘He is completely lost! People thought I was mad, but once I got past the craziness I felt in my heart: No, I am not lost, I have actually found the right way again!
Everything is going according to plan
When you come back into the energy of your authentic Self as a person, then the next step is the return to your authenticity as a soul. Even before you were born, you had your own frequency. You are a unique piece of the puzzle of The Source, that chose to be here: in this time, on this planet, in this body. It is not a coincidence that you are here, because you have prepared your incarnation. And even if you now have the feeling that you are on the right course or not: everything is going according to plan.
In retreats I often do a meditation where the participants are taken back to the time before they were born. This is a visualization that starts at the time when we are 21 years old. In stages we go 7 years backwards. This is because every seven years of our life, we make a leap in consciousness, that is similar to a sort of ‘repair file’ that is in our system. What is really beautiful is that, people are able to make connections to what they experienced during this meditation and what they see when they make contact with the soul plan. It is almost as if they can really remember what had been ‘planned’ before their birth, to be experienced in this life. Suddenly there is a deep and peaceful realization: everything is going according to plan.
The Ultimate Return
The purpose of the ‘birth meditation’ is to find answers to the things that you repeatedly come across as a person. What formed you? What repeats in your life? What were the most important occurrences? Which people played a part? Which influences were important for you? When we reach the point before birth, then I slowly close off the meditation and we are now back in the here and now. In the process towards The Source Code, the birth moment is absolutely not the final point, but actually the beginning. From there we can go even further back, to past lives and other dimensions where you have been. In that process we can also call in the help from your guides, who accompany you to other worlds to find even more answers. However, I don’t see it as learning something new, but more like downloading the things that you know subconsciously.
In the next webinar – on 19th October 2020 – I will share the new activation Ultimate Return. The name says it all: it is the return to the frequency you had as a soul, before you arrived in this life. In this way we are energetically taking the step back towards the Source. I am really looking forward to this evening, where I will be accompanied by Sandra de Vos. She is a multi-dimensional sound healer, shaman and soul activator. She can do extraordinary things with her voice, which immediately brings you into ecstasy and also speaks the language of the light. I have asked her, especially for this broadcast, because she, in my opinion makes the bridge between the two themes we are doing on our journey. She is also very authentic and can step back into her soul frequency very easily when she channels. She will make, (just like Tijn Touber) a contribution to the online workshop with an inspiring video. Participants can also look forward to a unique contribution from this guest speaker.
If you are participating in The Source Code and you wish, during this phase, to take a step towards your authenticity, then share your experiences with your surroundings. Don’t be afraid of rejection but remember your vulnerability in the source is actually powerful and very inspiring. You do not need to speak to everyone about this, so choose the people you trust and who are in the same frequency as you. If you want to prepare for The Ultimate Return, then go in the meditation to the times when you were 21, 14 and 7 years old. Recall images in yourself, or perhaps with music. Take a step back and see if you can see connections between then and now.
I look forward to meeting you online again soon.
From heart to heart,